I won't be planning this year's new year mass so now, right here at my blog, I would like to make this sacred announcement- drumroll please.....lights.....camera......and......action!- CHRISTOPHER CHAN WILL BE DECIDING WHERE YOU GUYS WANNA GO FOR COUNTDOWN MASS, SO PLEASE CONFERENCE WITH HIM AND DECIDE WHERE YOU GUYS WANNA HEAD TO!

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Once again, I am so fucking bored in school. I just played the guitar for 1 plus hour and I think I wanna go for guitar classes cuz I don't think its enough to know just this few ways of playing, I wanna improve!! So ya, anyone with good schools, please tag!!

Well this year's christmas is somehow different cuz I spent it with my family and my nana girl. On Christmas eve, we went over to our auntie's place for christmas dinner and nana was there as well, so yea, had a great feast and this year, the kids didnt really have a 'present-ful' christmas cuz my uncle's cousins from New Zealand came over so ya, to prevent the need from buying more presents, my aunties and all didnt really prepare gifts, so ya. period.

Christmas day was the usual, went for mass in the morning and was suppose to meet baby, but ya, she was kinda sick so we met up later in the day. Went over to foo's place for a mini christmas party, had fun and went home.

Just another day in school. So bored that I fricking do not know what to blog about. So I shall just share with all of you how to kill borderm in school for 8 fricking hours. This is what I normaly do (please read carefully cuz if you wanna know how to kill borderm, you better learn from the best, which is from me, Nigel the great)

*0830-reach school and clock in

*0845-breakfast at Breadboard (its a canteen name, the stupid school actually came up with all these stupid names to all the different canteens in school)

*0930-back to lab, on the com, tune in to class 95fm online streaming radio just so I can have some sound around me other than my snoring groupmate beside me

*1000-go canteen buy mineral water

*1015-stupid lab supervisor will walk in and comment on every single thing to kao pei on

*1030-he leaves and every one else in the lab starts playing games

*1030-I continue to listen to radio, go msn, go read online newspaper, listen to indians in my lab talking in a strang language called tamil and irritate me, youtube, watch movie, read book, ACTUALLY WE COULD GO FACE BOOK BUT THE FUCKING BLOCK THE SITE. *damn, so instead we go friendster.

*1130-lunch. actually lunch starts at 12 but heck, we normally leave at 1130

*1135-meet my friends, decide for 25mins where to go eat cuz we are so fucking sick of the food in school. If weather is good, we'll go opposite school and have lunch, if its raining, we'll normally head to Design school and have western food cuz they have nacho cheese. *some lameass shit excuse. But the food's really good and its dirt cheap.

*1400-by right we are supposed to be back at 1300 but once again, HECK! Sometimes we head over to tampines mall for lunch but seldom cuz damn lazy.

*1430-continue to do the same as what I did at 1030, but now I go blog surfing. so ya, know you all know I read your blog everyday, infact about 5 times a day, maybe more. So better go update frequently (as I'm typing this entry, my groupmate is fucking snoring right beside me, I cant hear my radio, he snores really loudly. AND HE IS FROM CITYHARVEST CHURCH! Everytime ask me go his church for events and stuff. SCREW YOU AND YOUR CHURCH! I HATE SUN HO AND I HATE EVERYTHING ASSOCIATED WITH YOUR CHURCH! THEY ARE NOW FASTING CUZ CHRISTMAS IS COMEING. HAHA,HE JUST CHANGE HIS PLACE, WENT OVER TO THE OTHER SIDE OF THE LAB TO SLEEP. HELL YEAH!)

*1530-go canteen buy food to munch. Normally will go over to short circuit (another dumbfuck canteen name cuzits in engineering school) to get wedges cuz its damn damn damn nice! they will deep fry only when you order so ya, its damn hot and crispy!!! And the best thing, its only $1.50, (some dirt shit cheap food), den i'll buy nacho cheese which cost 30cents and pour inside the bag of nachos and eat, fucking better than KFC cheesefries! *Angela you should try it man! Then will get a 550ml of coke to go along with the wedges and TA-DA.. a nice oily and fattening tea-time break!!

*1600-continue to surf the net for lameass videos, this includes (jeff dunham, power rangers bullshit and of course my favourite, indian racist videos) Please go you tube and watch jeff dunham! highly reccomanded from lameass nigel the great!

*1715-off the com, pack you stuff and go queue up to clock out like as if the singapore auntie queue up for free gifts or like JB people that come into singapore on bikes.

*1730-clock out, walk damn fast to the bus stop and hurry take bus home cuz when you see the school from the bus stop, it feels like you just got out from jail and you fucking don wanna get back in. (ITS HELL IN THERE)

Well well, in the above stated schedule, it excludes sleeping, normally I average out about a total of 2 hours of sleeping time so ya. I am now heading to the gym so yea. Til then, enjoy the tips of "How to kill time" brought to you by the ultimate time-killing machine, Nigel the great.

Finally completed the powerpoint slides for project review tomorrow. Was supposed to go see and do some market research for the giutar I wanna buy for christmas for myself but in the end can't make it so I came home, alone. Bored til death and then something happened. Long long story, to keep it short, this year's new year will be spent at home.

According to experience and knowledge, what you guys are suffering from is perfectly normal. There are a few signs to look out for if you think you're suffering from this particular sickness. First of all, you still feel like you're in camp, you still have the 'camp mood'. Secondly, you feel like you can't live without your legion friends. Thirdly, you would feel like meeting them every single day. Forthly, you feel very close to one particular camper, the feeling like he or she is damn close to you. Fifth, you still hope you're in camp again. And lastly, you'd miss you camp chief NIGEL NG.

It is ok to feel the way you are feeling. Don't worry, you are not the only one. Most of us will feel like that! And the fact that you are feeling this way is because you opened yourself up during the camp and enjoyed the camp thoroughly. Well this is something good! You are not wierd! Those that DO NOT suffer from these symptoms are not normal! So just to say again, what you are suffering from is called "post JXY symptoms"

Well, its actually quite heartwarming to know that new friendships are formed during the duration of the camp. Its truely amazing what the legion is capable of doing. And its this drive that keeps me going and going, being able to change people, to chnge the way they think, they live and who they are as a person. Its truely something money can't freaking buy. I am really loving what I am doing and I will still continue to do it. I wanna devote my time to legion cuz this is where I grew up, the place where I met people that changed and transformed me. And most importantly, I knew myself better. I saw myself grow. I saw myself changed. What I see now is a new me. And I still continue to grow. And it will never stop. I am really living my life to the fullest now.

The theme this year was very much different from the past few years. In fact, from all camps before this. I had one thing in mind when I first took up the role as Camp Chief. I want to make this special for those that came and I want to make it the best JXY ever. I want them to come as individuals and leave home as a pack. A compact one. One that is interdependent. One by the name I call 'LEGION'. And they did, my camp facilitators (YGZ) did it. Everyone in the camp made it possible.

Throughout the whole camp, I felt something so intensed. I have never ever felt it before. Its not about the fact that I'm camp chief and all I'm supposed to do is make sure the planned programes run smoothly. hell no. I wanted my campers to feel like they are here to have fun and enjoy the 5 days. Not to wake up feeling tired but to wake up feeling excited about everything thats going to happen throughout the day.

I dare say that I have been in the legion long enough to watch people come and go. Many left with reasons I couldn't accept. 'I don't have time.. school damn busy...' Time is what we are gien and how we use it is entirely up to us. I just feel very sad for those that left for this reason. For they do not know what they just walked out from in their lives.

On the other hand, I have also seen people coming out of it a better person, a changed person, a new life, a new beginning. From a quiet person, one that never talks, to one whom finally spoke. Its an intense feeling. It was the first time I actually hear her speak. The first time after I have seen her-- 4 years ago. Her voice was the most beautiful thing God created. It touched me. It filled me up inside. It was something I knew the legion did to make her what she is this very day. I wanted all to know that she has finally changed. She is someone I thought will never be able to express herself. Someone that will never step out. But right now, I am just gald she did. She small little actions, just assured us all that we were in fact someone in her life that she sees as friends. Friends that mattered. Friends that care. Friends that love. She was the one that I felt made my camp a worthwhile one. She gave me new hopes. And most importantly, She gave herself a new life.

This year's camp was a daring one. I had so many of 'first time..' The first timers of my YGZs, the first time of using a new campsite, the first time of me being the camp chief. The first time I feel what is was like to be heading the camp. It was a total new feeling. I have been in YGZ for the past 4 years. And the fact that being in there is already so much of fun and satisfaction, I didnt know what to expect when I became camp chief. Will I be able to get the feeling i had when I was in YGZ? I really didnt know and I didnt expect anything before the camp started. My only concern was that all the programs run smoothly and that the campers leave with something from the camp. But, I was so wrong. I felt twice as mush satisfaction as compared to being in YGZ. First I saw that me group of YGZs were finally working together and especially monica. She shined her way through. She is someone full of potential. She aims high and makes sure things get done. And its her first time in YGZ. She is so hardworking. She works hard even when she's tired. She just make me so so proud of her. And the fact that she did it for the passion. The love for the camp. Its truely touches my heart to know that this girl right here, is really giving her 110%.

Before I really went to know her, I thought that all along this was just one normal girl coming for camps cuz he was forced to and that she would always be in her own clique. She was labeled as one of those few that simply didnt care about everything. But we were wrong. She was that way she were because she couldnt fit into the crowd. She was someone that can make a difference and she did. She really did. Not everyone saw her effort but I did. She worked through the night to make sure nothing fails during the execution. She makes sure everyone knows their roles. She made sure everything runs smoothly. She did it. She really did. I am so so proud of her. I really am.

The camp in general has bonded us so much closer. Like every other camps, its definite to leave the camp with something. but I feel that this year's camp, they left with so much more. Perhaps it was because of my theme and that they could link it closely with their life, or perhaps it was the doings of someone higher up. On my personal note, I have grew so much deeper. When I saw that my campers knew the camp dance and was dancing not as individuals, but as a camp, as one body, my world brightened up. Its an insane feeling. I broke down. I felt God, I felt his doings, I felt him.. What I saw wasnt 24 campers dancing. I saw one legion dancing. All to the same tune. And for the simple fact that they learnt the camp dance, is a sign that they have grown, they have accepted everything and they grew. Its a different feeling when you really see things as a whole. When I was in YGZ, i felt good when they knew how to dance. Thats all. Nothing more and nothing less. But this time round, as camp chief, I know that they have bonded. They have accepted eveything and most importantly, they were simply enjoying it.

All in all, I am so proud of everyone on my team this year. I am glad you guys worked so hard to make sure the camp runs smoothly. I am thankful you guys sacrificed so much of your time to plan for the camp. I am thankful there was no rain for the past 5 days. I am thankful the campers felt closer. I am thankful for pet's and robin's help. I am thankful for all campers for coming to the camp. I am thankful for the care and support from my parents, friends and seniors.

Thank you all.

The camp is over and it can't be brought back. But I know the memories from the camp will never be lost. The crying, the hugs and the late night sleep. I have enjoyed every single bit of the camp and now, for all those that were present at the camp, I thank you all for making everything pssible. Now, I am closing the book of the camp.