Baby told me about a story of 10% and 90%. It really made a huge impact on me. 10% being things you cant control and 90% being how you react upon the 10%. It works on everything. No other method works better than this.

Foo just put an end to something and the three brothers had a good talk. Especially kee and I. We talked about life. For the first time in so long I was able to talk to kee about this knida stuff. Well, I am always running away from problems in reguards to life. Questions like where do you see yourself in 10 years' time. I never had any answer. I never did. But talking to kee today, we only came to this conclusion. Everything in life is solely about yourself and how you want to live it. You can have a million reasons to live for but you only need one thing to make your life worth living for. Ask yourself what is that one thing that can give you strength to climb the highest mountains, to cross the deepest sea, to soar the highest sky, to make it simple, what is the one thing that keeps you alive, that changes the way you beheave and react and let you will power do the rest. For me, I try my best to trust my own will power but I tend to fail. I am not strong inside. However, it takes time. Every individual takes different amount of time to fully understand and to really make use of their own will power. I am making use of it now. I am really trying my best to be able to tell myself what to do. Its damn hard. It really is. But all it takes is one step. From that one step, take another and the rest will follow naturally. A journey of a thousand miles begins with a step a they always say.

My baby, means a lot to me. She knows. And I know it too. Kee asked me "how do you know that the someone you're with, is THE one?" I paused and answered, "you just do, you just know that she is THE one!" Kee understood every single word I said. He always understands. He is always very deep in thoughts and I really admire him for that trait. But on a serious note, you know she's the one when she IS the one. Like how I know that she IS the one. Its something you can't explain. She is the reason you do everything. In whatever things that you do, she is always in the picture. She is the reason that make you change. Not to make you a different person to her own liking. But to change you for the better. Not for her. For yourself. It really is the true reason why she change you. It's hard to tell you how much it means when someone in your life is making a huge impact on everything that you do but its a mighty strong force that keeps you going on and is always pushing you, positively. Right now, I just wanna say to that special someone in my heart that you really give me strength to do things I can't. But I know there is only so much she can give. The rest is ultimately down to my own will power to do it. And I swear, I am trying. And I promise no matter how hard it is, I will perserve, I will not give up, I will succeed, I will cuz I know I can. Will power.