She is the bestest bestest thing that ever happened in my life. This few weeks, I know that now, we have connected emotionally. I am very sure. I know when she needs me without her saying. I know what she wants to say everytime and its this special little something that exist that makes me want to discover more about love, love with you and love from you. Its an achievement when two bodies are emotionally connected. You feel good about it. Well I do not know about the others but I think its soething not easy to come by and I took 8 months to achieve this.

All along, in the past, I thought I understood what it means by emotionally connected but in actual fact I didnt. I didnt at all. Well I must say I have grown up quite a lot this 8 months, I have never felt like that before. Its like I'm finally being a sensible man. A man. I ain't a boy no more. So much so I told my mum whatever problems I think may affect our future. Everything. I told my mum I was dead serious about my baby. And that what my mum thinks will affect me in making decisions for everything. And I want my family to like her, to accept her for who she is and to love her like her own sister and own daughter. Just like how I did. It'll take some time but I'm sure we can do it.

Now, baby will always ask me to make decision for her. Its not that she can't think for herself. Its that she cares how i think and she wants me to be part of her decision making thats why she usually asks me for opinion when it comes to desicion making. I used to lament about why she always cant make decision herself. But now I know, cuz I've grown, because of you.

Many things happened between us and we usually at that point of time want the other party to go away. But in super actual fact, we want each other more. It happens to everybody. [NO from the mouth, YES from the heart] well, it happened to us as well. But never walk away. It'll hurt you and most importantly hurt the other party even more. I've learnt and I'll remember. Always and ever.

It has been about a month since I blogged. And once again lotsa stuff happen.

The planning for year end church camp has started. And I'm heading the camp.

School started and projects are coming in like it's free of charge.

Term test just ended and results are so-so only.

The stupid compamy that I was suppose to work for has delayed my first day of work for bout 4 weeks now, screw the boss. I might just go work at rasa sentosa. period.

Baby is so stressed up with work and things are not going her way.

I cannot stand it when people make use of other people. And now, its my girlfriend. So fuck you even more.

Have been going swimming every wednesday for the past two months. Looking good with my tan.

Project still not completed yet. Fuck the school. Give us so much shit to complete. Programming somemore. I fricking hate programming. *If anyone out there knows how to do programming in MCT please leave a P.M

Once again I would like to say "screw and fuck you" to the teachers who made use of my baby.

Have been gaining weight.

But have been working out. So it evens out.

Have not been using the com so thats why I have not been blogging.

I am loving my baby.

I wanna "zhng" my bike. I wanna get my front lights.