But not for me. It was the first time I felt so darn stressed when in the first place I werent in the planning committee. Well perhaps its cuz me being the "communicator" i had expectations from both sides, top and bottom. I'm not used to expections. Especially those that come almost instantly. I can't cope with it. But I still am trying and learning. Well the pre-camp i must say went on really good on the second daay cuz all of them weree working as a team. Not as individual small groups. Well this I can say is something they will take home with them. And after the camp, they will be more of a family than a team. Which by the way sounds better and is better. My meimei finally learnt how to be on her own and take charge but must do more understand!!! There's still a lot of room for improvement!

Well pre-camp is coming right up and I'm gald all the reports are finally coming in after so long and so much reminder. I want to offer my help to the two guys, Ian and Chris so I think I over did it a little too much and it seems like they are just a little too dependent on me. But me being me again, I would rather do it myself than to bother others but in this case I think I still distributed the job around. Today is wednesday and I got bout 60% of the reports even though i gave them til thursday. Job well done guys. I think the camp will go just smoothly. And it depends on the precamp. Precamp will be headed by Ian and Chris and me Pet, robin will just help out a little. Guess pet and robin are both fricking worried that was why they stepped in. Perhaps I didnt do a good job as an advisor/helper in the beginning and caused all this to happen. Wel I did thought of this before, I can be selfish and say something like " I'm offering my help. It doesn't mean I'm oblidged to do a good job..." Erm.. That's so not me. Sorry. Anyways I'm not trying to say how noble I am. Just wanna say I like what I'm doing and I don't mind going the extra mile. Maybe I just didn't get them into the mood in the beginning......

Adding on to the camp, Projects are piling up and in one of my project group, one of the guy dropped out of school and the other one MIA, leaving with me and my friend. And guess what. It's a programming subject and I fucking suck with all the nonsense code thingy. But We'll figure a way out.
Next is Virtual Reality project. Nothing has been done. We're suppose to do a walk-thru of a living room. And we're supposed to draw out all the stuff from scratch. Yes, that includes the doors, walls, sofa, tv, window, whatever you can find in the living room that we want, we must draw it out ourselves. Not with paper and pencil. It's with a mouse and a monitor. It's super tough. Damn tough. But We'll figure a way out.

p.s (anyone who reads this who is good with Microcontroller or 3d studiomax or EON studio please tag!)

Many things happen again this week. Well no doubt my life is interesting. Baby's papa fainted at home and we called ambulance, my friend ride me to paya lebar, my friend drove us for lunch, baby bought a two thousand piece puzzle to do, (to be exact, it's 2014 pieces), it's a picture of the last supper(i like....) , i gain another kilo (my stomach is officially filled with fats) , baby went for operation, I met up with pet, robin, winson and angela for coffee, well all in all a super interesting week i had and a super interesting week to come! Til then, Loves to all!

I heaven been blogging cuz blogger is FOS.

Well so much had happened and so much had went by these 7days.

Lets start with what i can remember from last thursday. I went for climbing after school and I did belaying all the way cuz i would prefer to do that compared to be in the gym. Reason is simple. I cant climb well so i don't wanna be in the gym teaching the freshy how to climb when me myself cant even do it well. Thats why now when my other team mates cant do the routes, I'd just keep quiet. Last time I'd still give little tips here and there cuz i know it can be done. But now, even though i know it can be done I chose to remain silent cuz I know I cant do it. so yea.

Went to school like always and ended at 1. So i went home, wanting to go to the park but the sofa and xbox was once again too tempting and so i stayed home and sleep and in the evening brought my rusty boy for grooming and i tell you its super fucked up. My sister cried cuz of how the stupid groomer treated my poor little rusty boy. For further details please refer to my sister's blog. And by the way, ELIAS MALL PET'S SHOP'S GROOMER (ESPECIALLY THE AUNTIE, not the young one, IS FUCKING CONDEMNED).

Well saturday was a bad day. Baby was feeling super down and emo-tic. And kee finally broke up with her. Like finally can?! Which is a happy thing I feel but kee's just super heartbroken and all. He still thinks about her. As in up til today (16/5/07). Well loving someone doesnt mean being with her. So kee, carry on finding, the right one will come. So after hos breakup in the morning, we(me and foo) needed to cheer kee up so we tried all ways and decided to settled for LAN. Haha, I can't believe I'm actually LAN-gaming cuz I always thought I wont be the guy in front of the monitor. But yea, we managed to get kee to at least smile and got excited over the game and so we succeeded. so we went over to kee's place after LAN to continue our chilling session of majong. Gawd should have play money cuz all the way i was winning. But we didnt cuz its will hurt feeling ah!!! Then i went over to meet baby at her granny's place den yea. We talked and didnt turn out very well. Both of us also didnt know what was happening to us but we both knew its ok so yea. We headed back home. That night i was troubled cuz i really wanted to help my baby feel ok. I wanted her to smile. But I overdid things i overasked too many questions and caused us to be down more so yea. I still love her though.

Went to church as usual and then after that have recruitment meeting and erm we're seriouslr fucking behind time. Sorry erm I think 'very' is too light a word to use so 'fucking' would better describe what I'm trying to say. So yea. They kana a thrashing session by Pet and erm, if I were in their shoes I'd feel damn affected so yea. So me being me, I knida lighten up the mood of the meeting and all so ya, was just being myself. I just assured all of them. Thats what Im good at so yea. so after the meeting i went to meet the boys for dinner. It's foo's birthday cum mothers' day dinner. We met up at vivo and went to 黑社会for dinner. Well I must say that the food there was superb! A little too expensive for me I must say but yea. Its a once a year kinda thing and money spent is worth so yea. After dinner blossom had plans to surprise foo foe his birthday so yea, me and kee were of course the accomplices. So we dragged time til it was about 12 midnight , and guess what we did? Sit at the playground at vivo and talk cock, exchange martial arts moves, talk bout future, talk bout money, talk bout going to army as a last alternative. Well I guess when guys reach a age like us, we talk bout this kinda thing. so yea. We took a cab back and TADA!!!!! Surprise surprise foo!!!! haha, its been long since foo had sucha wonderful birthday cuz of all the things thats happening to his life so yea. I guess this year, He cried in his heart laa. He's one guy that tells you thank you when he means it. You can feel it. Happy birthday bro!

Foo's chalet. Well erm it was pretty last minute but everything turned out just fine. Haha, so i got mama to help me buy the food and all so its easier for me and she helpedme marinated the chicken wings so yea, haha. went over for the chalet and had bbq. So blossom and her mum and her mama's friend came shortly after that so yea. had so so much fun during the bbq. Baby kept wanting me to help her bbq stuff and so i did. haha, so at bout 1030 we took the cake out and all that included a present from me kee and baby, and a birthday card, inside, two brothers wrote their message from the heart. Eh foo, the rabbit can go missing but you better keep the vard properly! haha. yea. we gave him a rabbit for his birthday, as in a soft toy. Its our morsecode. a rabbit means something and its something only the three of us including baby and grace which means 5 of us, know what the rabbit means haha. Don't ask me cuz i wont tell!!! haha, and so because of the celebration and all the joy and fun and excitment, we had tonnes of corona beer. And the last bottle killed me. I was wasted. haha. We down one bottle together, a sign of eternal brotherhood. And so we did, cheers we went and downed the beer. We burbed like crazy after that and i got dipsy. haha. Baby gotta help me home. She was there by my side all the timewhen i needed her. She sent me all the way to my doorstep before she went home, Thank you baby!!!!!!!

So tuesday came and its the day baby's going for her operation. My poor little baby girl after her op she was crying cuz she was in so much pain. Lucky baby's mama and i sneaked into the ward to see baby haha!!! Her mama's the best. Don't care people one ah! haha. so I accompanied baby til she was better and then left the hospital for lunch at a kopitiam that serves superb porridge. so after lunch baby got super bad headache and got super dizzy so we hurried took a cab but couldnt find one so called cab and it came super fast. haha came back and baby went to bed cuz i guess sleeping would be the best to soothe the pain. So i accompanied her and stayed with her til it was bout 10 then I left. Still worrying if she'll be ok without me. I know my baby needs me. And I just want her to know I'll always be by her side if she ever needs me. I love you baby!

Came to baby's place and brought my xbox along cuz i figured for the next 2 weeks I'll be here accompanying my baby on her road to recovery!! So her brother can also play and we can chill. And me and her bro just plan maybe friday night i so stay over and chiong game with him. Well we'll see how it goes. So just now went with baby's family for dinner and ate so darn much. haha. I always feel so full everytime I eat with them. But all is good cuz i need to get fat. haha. Nice. so then now baby and her bro are playing xbox and having fun so til the next time... see ya and i love you guys!

I just came back from training and the response people gave me when I went back was pretty much expected but i didnt know it'd be this bad. Sigh. All those negative remarks they make sacarstically really affected me quite a lot. Remarks like "eh you still in the team meh?" , "hi nigel!!! Wow.. finally you cameback ah??!!" and so on and so forth. It puts you down. And this are the typical comments that people made. Well it was truely expected. But the one person i least expected, gave me the warmest welcome. It was Liz, well she's in the alumni, not part of TPSC anymore but she came to me, gave a nice climber style handshake and with her sweetest voice told me, "hey long time no see.." followed by the friendliest hug, 'thanks liz. if you're reading this. thank you so much. you made a difference.' If only everyone welcome me like that. But nevertheless like how i told kee, I wanna go climbing because of my love for the sport. If I need to go there and entertain all these people trying to put me down, it ain't gonna bring me anywhere. So yea. I made up my mind. I wanna go for traing constantly now-like the past when i was super enthu bout climbing. As in super enthu. Let me describe to you whats my definition of enthu.

In my free time i surf climbing sites, watch climbing videos, travel to queesway to just go see a pair of new rock climbing shoes, have my bag sew with a rock climbing brand tag, go gym and workout cuz i wanna climb better, climb til i had blister and stil continue, bought a brush specially for my rock shoes so i can maintain it so i can 'stick' to the wall better, wear like cock to school just so people know Im a climber, well it felt good to tell the world you're good at something. And the feeling of losing it, SUCKS.

Its not like i never contribute at all last time. Eh come on laa people. My team won first during a speed climbing competition against other poly. It was the first time TP has ever gotten any first and its by my team. So come on. Its just that i refused to become the captain of the team cuz I know there'll be tonnes of responsibilty and i got fucked. sigh. If i knew this would happen, I can jolly well be the captain. It not like i cant lead people and i can't make things happen. I CAN ok!! But i choose not to cuz I've had enough of this kinda thing in secondary school. And when things go wrong, who gets the bloody blame? The captain.. All the arrow point to the captain. Get what I'm trying to say? I just don like to be arrow-ed for the things I tried to do but failed. Just say that I'm not gamed enough or whatever. Period.

School projects are all coming along fine. School work is perfect. I can handle all the tutorial questions. Heaven been skipping any lecture. It may sound stupid but you must know how much lecture i skip the last two semesters then you'll know what i mean by I've achieved something by going for all the lectures and I mean go lecture and listen and absorb. I did it. I really feel good. It feels good to teach the friend beside you. It feels like you're look upon as someone who has a brain. Well you really have to know me to understand what Im trying to say. Its just a super great sense of achievment to know that you yourself is making so much effort and its paying off inside you. I know it. I don't need the whole world to tell me I've done it. I just know. Well starting right at the beginning of the semester just feels good.Like they always say 好的开始是成功的一半. And I'm living it.

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Just wanna say a big thank you to all those people that have been by my side supporting me directly or indirectly that you have made a difference in my life no matter or small the effort is. Thanks guys.